today was one of those days when you get up from bed with the desire to get back to sleep. hopefully to stay that way pretty much forever. it seems pretty sad to begin something new like this with negativity. but it is with the negative that we learn. it is with the negative that we begin to ask. it is with the negative that we begin to to define the fine line between a self defined set of truths among a whole sea of illusions. truth is self-defined. everything is an opinion. everything is an illusion. and thus with this, i believe in beginning with the negative. because that is my truth. that is the hand picke dillusion i choose to live by. 

i believe that until there is absolute utopia, negativity will keep things in check. it is a gift as much as it is a curse.